Singapore was having full-on Gaga fever last week, a trend I gladly joined and amidst all the commotion, someone asked why I love Lady Gaga.
Since I was a child, I wasn’t accepted by society, was always made to sit at the corner and bullied to oblivion. It carried through to adulthood with men and other relationships. In the middle of the brewing chaos which was my twenties, one of my past times was to study Gaga’s music videos to look for Easter eggs and the hidden meaning to a point that I remembered the lyrics and took it to heart. It felt like I was healing the little girl inside.
When Born This Way came out, I was finally brave enough to let go of the toxicities that were holding me back – men, relationships, circumstances and to stop hating myself so much. Later, her Art Pop album carried me through living from a rented bed space, my 6 day 12 hour shifts and my second surgery.
I almost wasn’t able to come for this Mayhem Ball because the announcement that she was coming came in at the last minute and I didn’t have the time to save enough to grab the tickets that were selling out fast. I tried joining as many Gaga related contests that were giving away tickets, something which I don’t normally do because I don’t depend on luck but I thought may be, if my videos were good enough? And if I didn’t win, at least I get to share Gaga’s message and remind people how much I love her. I didn’t win the contests though but I was so excited to learn of any Little Monsters who were going because we know we were all marginalised in some form and Gaga taught us to be proud of our paws. I was just happy that she was coming here, to Singapore, probably walking the grounds where I walked while my heart was in pieces while listening to her songs to give me a glimmer of hope. I wish she knew how she inspired me and how she pushed me to move forward.
And by some stroke of luck, through a spinning wheel at our Klook meet up, I won the last pair of tickets for the night, 2 nights before MAYHEM Singapore opening night. My first lucky draw win and it was for Gaga. I came home to cry tears of joy and then snapped out of it because Lisa and me only had 1 day to prepare our outfits.
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It was one of the best nights in a very long time, I got to be myself with my sister, dancing and singing along to our Mama Monster live, a dream I never thought I’ll be able to fulfil. I never want to forget this night so I compiled a series of our MAYHEM Singapore experience.
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